Wednesday 30 November 2011

wandering thru a journey called life.....

Not all who wander , are lost....I read this line, I've re-read it several times and I find this line describes my journey so far pretty accurately. I've been labelled Laid Back by a few people close to me.I don't wake up to an agenda every morning. When things are not going in my favour, I prefer to let the tides change and not try to swim up-stream. Yet I was as young as 12 or 13 when I knew the two subjects I would be studying were Literature and psychology. I wanted to grow up and get masters and possible PhD in both. The director of my first play laughed and said that's a weird ambition to have. I always felt, literature and psychology are inter-linked, the way my life panned out, it makes sense why my instincts made me pursue these two subjects. My livelihood for a long time came from writing. My passion is writing and reading. My path eventually led me to become a therapist and a healer. Healing was a gift I was endowed with, therapy came to me through my studies first in psychology, then past life and now specialising in regression. I am a good listener and my experiences in life made me empathetic. My ability to bounce back every time, smiling earned me the respect of a lot of people around me.Yet I wander...

I look at my husband, he has a clear goal and dream in mind, I see many driven people around me. I marvel at their discipline. Some pursue their dreams, some fulfil responsibilities. I do both and it may seem I've lost my compass somewhere in my journey. I have no particular aim in life except to learn and grow. I savour every experience to the hilt. When in pain I wallow deep in that abyss and once the experience is over swim ashore. When in ecstasy, I fly, I soar, I spread it all around, when in love , I put movies to shame....Is n't that what life is all about, experience, learn and let go... why struggle for more when it come naturally, all you have to do is stay prepared and do your best.

My first story was published when I was 16, I became a theatre actress and later director before I completed college, I became the assistant director to a famous director while in college, I have modelled, acted, written, assisted, become a healer, a tarot reader and a therapist. I grew from a department coordinator to an assistant vice president in a span of 3 years. I left it all just as easily when my son needed me. I have no pressure of reaching a destination. I know the journey is more important. I know no matter what road I take, as long as I don't repeat the same mistakes I will reach a few good mile stones that will define my journey. The end destination is the same, death....

Today I've nothing poignant to say or write, today is just about a reminder not to judge another's journey. To do yours at your own pace. To remember the things that matter, your friends, your spouse, your children, they make this journey beautiful and worth while. If you find it poetic to watch a sunset or sun rise, and the city scape doesn't allow you that any ways, maybe you're a late riser like me and miss most sun rises, watch the sun beam your child spreads in your life. Bask in the warmth of cuddles and hugs of your loved ones after all no matter how long or short your journey, there will come a time when you will pause, you will stop to rest, that's when these memories will make your path seem beautiful, you will turn to see the person who has been your "hamsafar" (fellow passenger) and you don't want to be alone. Who then will you share the highs and lows and marvel at how far you've come....

This journey called life, is beautiful, if you chose to make it so. Fame, Success, Wealth, all are important flag posts, knowing influential people, awards and trophies are all good, but what you will carry with you beyond the grave is emotions, relationships and memories from when you paused and looked around.... wandering is good sometimes....





4 comments:

  1. A sublime piece ... this really shows how easily and deeply you have surrendered ... the depth of attachment with the understanding of detachment has bowled me over ... fer inspired passage that reflects the divinity of your soul , so untainted it is .... very well written :)

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  2. very well written ...quite similar to what i feel about life..the importance of letting go..it reminds me of the difference between searching and finding quoted by Herman Hesse in his book Siddhartha... searching is when u have a goal and in your desire to get that one goal you often let g of other things that might emerge in the journey..finding is when u have no agenda or goal so whatever u get in life is treasured..

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  3. I really liked this.Very nicely written.

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  4. Thank you Rekha, Annie and Jatayu, your kind words are encouraging. I haven't yet read Siddhartha, I sure will now. Do keep reading and posting. God Bless :)

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